Farewell to Narcissus

Narcissus's webs are his effortless game because you, in your programming, politely walk into them yourself. He doesn’t have to try too hard, although, of course, he plays his role marvelously, which involves inciting admiration for himself. What you might initially perceive as “admiration for You” is his admiration for HIMSELF, by your side.
 

• From the beginning, he feels you are a splendid opportunity for his Ego to be fed in so many ways, and your energy allows him to feel genuinely important, albeit momentarily. You excel at this, for pushing others onto a pedestal and serving them has always been your role.
• What you start interpreting as Love is a mix of chemistry, your addictions, longings, and attempts to cover up what’s painful.
• The honeymoon phase ends very quickly, if it ever starts at all, because usually, you subconsciously already see what you’re getting into, but you proceed anyway.
• You proceed because this pattern is so comfortably familiar to you, and hence you mistake it for true intimacy.
• Meanwhile, such a relationship is an absolute denial of self-love and love for life.

Love has nothing more to do with this desperate attempt to transform something that is such a strong structure that you can only keep crashing against the walls surrounding his Heart.

• There isn’t even pain there anymore, so effectively has it been masked by his stories, which prevent a deeper immersion into those regions that were the root cause of his state.
• Your choice is determined, so in reality, you don’t have one, but merely adjust yourself to this template.
• Suppressed and submissive, you become in the face of this art, in which you so perfectly find yourself as a victim of your projections.

And yet, aware of your Power, you start to fight, instead of giving up at the very beginning and leaving as soon as possible. Every day, therefore, is a minefield, where you navigate between words, emotions, and thoughts, so as not to provoke his anger, silence, separation, departure, which at the same time you subconsciously desire, because it is, in fact, the goal of this relationship.

• Both of you know your roles perfectly, and until you bid farewell to your attachment to what will never happen in this arrangement, you will still be entangled in this time loop, observing that every effort brings you back to the same moment.
• Finally, AWAKENED and sober, you discover that this dream was just a certain story of the Mind, ended the moment you turned to your Heart.
• You NOW KNOW that the shadows of the mind are only a trampoline to seek yourself/God/Love.
• You NOW KNOW that you will not find it in your fantasies, desires, darkness.

So, you allow the light of your soul to illuminate this web of CONSCIOUSNESS of Who You Truly Are.
Then it disappears. And does not return.
Because there is no longer anyone to return to.
The person you were has left,
and the traces of that story are just that deepened wisdom.

Ultimately, you are thankful for every stage of this journey to nowhere.
You are finally in place.
A Goddess extracted from this intricate web of lies about life.